Acedip

“don’t be afraid
it’s only love
love is simple
don’t be afraid
you’re already dead
love is simple” A very beautiful song by Akron Family called love is simple. what is most beautiful about the song that it reminds of a lot of things, its like all the snapshots of those moments which I cherish or regret or sad go by in  a second. I had always wondered how will a dead person might feel, because when you are alive, you are a life form in your self, bursting with liveliness and either making people around you happy or sad by your actions. But once you are dead, how would that feel, how would you feel when you cant see the world like you did when you were alive from your own eyes, its like a real time role playing game of which you are an integrate part of. How you feel happiness, the sadness and all those things which make one happy. And once dead, there is nothing which can effect you, you cant enjoy the pleasure of a smoke in chilly windy night, you cant enjoy seeing the sun set in the horizon, and the nature around you.

And I think death is easy, its more difficult to live, tough is to handle things every day, which give you so much pain that you feel this strong urge to end it, but you feel another strong will to go on with it, you somehow feel that you cant loose this battle against life. I also dont blame those people who take the easy way out and end all this, because suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem because you can never comprehend the pain a human being can take, there are only personal limits and the reference point. The hypocrite world says its a crime to end the life “god” has given you, I want to ask those people, if you care so much for that life then why do you let your actions add up to all that pain, do something to resolve the pain. And also first of all I think the right to take ones life should solely lie with that person whose life we are talking about, he has every right to do whatever he likes  himself, why do doctors fillup the consent form from the patient only, and the patient has to tell what he’d like to be done with his body after he’s dead, why dont we let the law-makers decide then too what should be done with the patient.

Human brain is such a complex array of circuits, no other person can every know what might be going inside it. At times life takes such complex terns, you hardly believe this is happening to you, because you had never imagined yourself into this mess and now you are stuck inside it with no way to get out. you feel so helpless when there are changes in your life far beyond your control. You desperately want things to get normal but they dont, and you know that they wont, but still you want to believe that they should, because the changes which are coming are killing you inside out.  you dont want to imagine yourself waking up tomorrow and that change so visible and evident that you cant revert back, that fear of the worst hurts like anything. And you question yourself, what wrong did you do, why only you and there is no answer. But some people are so strong and I wonder how can they still be, they never let out how they feel inside. They come out with a lovely smile on their faces as if nothing is wrong, and go about talking about things which are really important for others, I think the only thing that makes them do this is their strong ideals, their strong back bone which makes them even stand up right for even the worst things. They will do anything to go by their standard, no matter how high they are and how much they might go through to swore by it but still they would do it. And this is what gives them the strength to take on the world by the stride and do what they do best, fight with it.

There are so many things which can be said about the same matter and ofcourse with different view points but I guess some other time when I know exactly how these intricacies of life are taken care of. I myself finds my self from time to time tangled in such situations and behaviour of humans. But what more can one say about that, we are only human.